don't you dare forget

dear diary. jackpot!

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 09:17:01 GMT

=O
oooo
reet good it is!

righty.

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 16:15:50 GMT

i got an email back from the aqua shack place, and yeah, we need to book asap+ there'll be a £25 booking fee+ such. so if you wanna see the email, ask me to send you it+ such.

x

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 23:14:27 GMT

today, i slept til like two.
then went to meet booley in town. we were apparently job hunting, but that didnt happen, went to this shop+ saw mig+ lisa =)

then we went to carpe, played pool+ saw mig+lisa again!

we travelled to joes well, cos penknifelovelife were playing+ we were bored. we didnt go see them, we just played pool+ table football.

saw cropper, cos he was playing tonight aswell.

had a good day.

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 14:50:47 GMT

http://www.aquashacksurflodge.com/availability/bymonth.php?categoryid=2&fMonth=7&fYear=2005

right, im guessing that most are gonna be avaliable, but i wanna book asap.

yes ben you can come if you wanna.
hehe
im looking for late june-july. for 7 nights.

♥

Wed, 05 Jan 2005 00:08:29 GMT

basically, there's four of us so far. me nemo poolie+ rachel.

we're booking somewhere like this
http://www.newquayreefsurflodge.co.uk/prices.htm

asap. so let me know, we'd need booking fees etc.

so woo yeah x

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 23:40:35 GMT

http://www.newquayreefsurflodge.co.uk/prices.htm

http://www.theboardinghouse.co.uk

http://www.reefsurflodge.info

http://www.newquayreefsurflodge.co.uk

thinking more guest house wise now.

right kids.

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 14:20:10 GMT

ive just been thinking.
in the summer, is anyone up for a holiday? to cornwall or somewhere, for like a week, it'd be awesome to do it.

im gonna properly look into it+ for avaliability+ shit on hotels etc..or youth hostels, pricing+ everything

i really wanna do this+ if not. im just gonna go down anyway.

haha.

so yeah, comment+ lemme know if anyone is seriously up for it.

peace out =P

happy new year!

Sat, 01 Jan 2005 19:57:07 GMT

woo, its like, 2005, ehhy?
anyway, i hope you all had a good night last night+ such!!

♥

wooohooo

Tue, 28 Dec 2004 22:29:51 GMT

ok im in a good mood.
this weeks being belting+ now im sat here drinking.
woo wooo.
saw tom+ shizzle today.
rar rar xxx

fucking christmas baby♥

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 23:10:43 GMT

today was belting. went to my aunties+ had a really good day. i didnt expect to but it was just funny. my family are fucking ace!!!!!
i hope you all had as good a day as i did.

fucking yess ♥

also...

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 18:05:26 GMT

Hold close now
It’s your only assurance
Of controlling the outcome of this ending
Is it ending or just leaving us
Tired and waiting?
You’re chasing the reasons
Revolving in circles of questions
We’ve all tried to answer for ourselves
The answer’s already inside us
Just Listen
And maybe you’ll find an answer
You don’t want to hear
It’s only your diversions that keep it away
Just open up your eyes to see
Finally you’ll understand to fill this void
Empty out entirely what’s standing now

good band. called beloved. y'all should check em out. x

its a strange disease...

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 17:58:57 GMT

but people who turn scene, get really fucking ignorant towards their friends. gay x

♥

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 12:23:21 GMT

i sit here clutching useless lists
and keys for doors that don't exist
i crack my teeth on pearls
i tear into the history
just show me what it means to me in this world

'cause i am due for a miracle
i'm waiting for a sign
i'll stare straight into the sun
and i won't close my eyes
'til i understand or go blind

i see the parts but not the whole
i study saints and scholars both
no perfect plan unfurls
do i trust my heart or just my mind
why is truth so hard to find in this world
yeah in this world

'cause i am due for a miracle
i'm waiting for a sign
i'll stare straight into the sun
and i won't close my eyes
'til i understand or go blind

i know that there's a point I've missed
a shrine or stone i haven't kissed
a scar that never graced my wrist
a mirror that hasn't met my fist
but i can't help feeling like i'm

due for a miracle
i'm waiting for a sign
i'll stare straight into the sun
and i won't close my eyes

tonight..

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 01:14:52 GMT

its a bit rainy innit?
i like to sleep to the sound of the wind and rain tho.
the most pointless update ever.
g'night kids♥x

eer.

Tue, 21 Dec 2004 23:08:55 GMT

i just got some shit in my mouth. which looks the stuff from smoking advert, the gunk in the veins. sick. i had it in my mouth this morning too. its sick shit man.
i dont like it
i just dyed my hair brown+ some off it is still purple. gay.

anyway.
i should of tidyed my room. but sack that, saw ben, alice, lottie, nemo, cusic, rory, sophie+ steve. sophie is tres pretty yess. ♥

i be gone

Mr Brightside♥

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 23:36:16 GMT

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his—chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

Cause I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibi
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never...

rargghh. >.

haha. deadjournal.

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 18:06:21 GMT

im sorry. i never realised you got this down... i need to talk to you... fuck.
Life was so much better two or three years ago. I never get the chance to speak to you now. Things will get better. I promise. I'm sorry if you ever came to me for advice and i just made a joke of it. I honestly am. I feel bad now. for always moaning to you but not noticing how you were. I miss the days of going on bike rides round wortley. the days of coming round to your house and falling asleep watching wreslting. the days of you coming round at 8 in the morning for breakfast, playing on the sega megadrive.. the old days. Listening to bloodhound gang... and limp bizkit... Playing hide and seek in your huge house... and the rest of it. the old days.
I love you jemma, I always have and i always will. your like my sister. you practically ARE my sister.. And i dont want that to change. ever. If there is ever something wrong. tell me. and i will drop everything for you. Even if I cant walk, I can still listen, and thats what i'll do from now on. you are welcome at my house anytime. ANYTIME, even if my dogs dead or something i'd like you to be there.

I never get sick of you.

TOM ROCKS!

rawr.

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 13:55:06 GMT

im am absolutely knackered!!
no fun whatsoever!
im fucking bored. and im really sick of my shitty routine i have.
im starting up again at college next year. college of technology. (digital imagery) woo. if i get in like. i better do.

im really sick of everything at the mo.
how everything is going. how i just do the same thing. everyday. apart from weekends. which is "go to carpe" which is shit now. its so boring and meh(N)

I wanna go somewhere new. but dont wanna be all "ID" and shit.
Oh well. i cant complain. have a nice 6 months to wait yet.& then HURRAH!
but Leeds is gonna get well shit if i just do the same thing everyy day &weekend.

I need a change. I need direction in my life. I feel as if I'm just floating around doing shit.
Im watching the people around me grow up+ sort their lifes out. which blows. im like two years behind everyone now.
But i cant complain. I hated ND. it was shit shit.

So now im starting again. Im gonna try& im gonna fucking enjoy myself from now on cos i cant be arsed with all "Im so depressed im just going to sit an mope at home" (im aiming that at myself btw. not anyone else)

Everyone to their own. but i just cant be bothered with it.

Last night was good.
But i was just in a headfuck mood.
I enjoy talking to the panino. he helps me out. alot.

i miss him!!!

so yes. here's to a new start &a brighter look on things.

I say this and im so blatantly not gonna change. Im really gonna try!!

grrrrrrrr.

Sun, 12 Dec 2004 00:57:09 GMT

im well confused. argh.
bens bday today.
i wasnt in the party moood.
but i had a really good talk with ben& ive missed him lotss.
im tired& id like to sleep for ages& wake up, everything back to normal.
i reckon im just gonna download music tomorrow& then buy a cd rewriter. yess.
work monday. not looking forward to it. at all.
=(
staff party tuesday which will be..interesting.

im proper making an arse out of myself for someone who i'l prolly not get.
just another "i really do like you. but i have a girlfriend"

grr grrrr.
fuck it.
shit happens.
but meh.
ill get over it.
lalalaaaa.

so fucking bored.
i hope the panino is okkk!!
i do love that boy♥

happppy.

Fri, 10 Dec 2004 23:43:54 GMT

So today. met tom in citrus& then steve left/ hehe. went to crash. bought misfits cd. saw John=) woo. we went walking around. looking at tattoos& suchness. went to borders.
I went down to work& felt ill as fuck. so i asked if i could go home& the boss was like "you'll get your contract terminated blah blah" so i couldnt.
so i sat outside& text russ. he brought me some bread in from morrisons. awww hes ace. he was concerned& everythiing
THEN

went out tonight. after work. Russ met me after work& =) we went to the shitty pub next door& such. Then up to carpe. spent like a few hours in there. saw my baba!! &mel &etc. haha.
then russ&&<3333
hes ace. and we just spoke about loads of stuff& hes ace.
we talked about liking each other.
he walked me to my taxi. =) james followed us. was odd
i really am gonna dislike work now cos they've gone. grr. seeing him earliest tuesday at teh party. wooooo.
&i wanna see him tomorrow.
awww. i really do likes him.
he has a gf tho =(

no fun x

Thu, 09 Dec 2004 23:25:35 GMT

childrens programs.

button moon.

the shoe people.

poddington peas.

SUPER FUCKING TED!
haha

name some. c'mon i want the classics here kids.

and does anyone know what the hell "trumpton" is??!?!?!(Rob's crazy) =D

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 21:37:31 GMT

matthew spenceley is thee FUNNIEST guy ever ever!
hes ace.
wooo =D

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 21:06:29 GMT

all im saying is.
what the fuck.
i look like my mum
GAY

Sun, 05 Dec 2004 14:42:53 GMT

ooer.
long time.
no internet.
alot of things have changed. with people.
haha
oh well
Alexis last night& WOW!!
thankyou to ben& lottie for putting me in thee air&the hot as fuck singer..mmmmm.
anyway.
got an interview for halifax tomorrow *is nervous*
i swear. people in leeds are getting hotter.
hurrah =)

lottie is the besttt =D

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 11:40:42 GMT

im so fucking bored.
webcam photos hurrah.
just being looking on myspace &realising it is so fucking shit& lame. the girls who are on it. with their fucking boobs out covered by their hands& they're fucking ugly&its like 'get a fucking life'

gr gr grr.

maybe i cant talk.
haha.
but over the net to complete randomers. psssh.

i think im developing a liking.
hmm